reading then blogging

usually after reading great literature, i will be inspired to write, whether blogging or something more personal that gets inked into my leather bound journal, i would want to write being in the inspired state. i have read three great books for the past month. i have finished emma by jane austen which i have decided to be my favorite in all of jane austen's work, wuthering heights by emily bronte and while i was gone by sue miller that doesn't even include my side reading like newspaper and magazine articles. that was three really great works of literature, well written, critically acclaimed, good read, and should have been great sources of inspiration to write and most especially writing a blog but no i was slacking on the writing part. i made a feeble attempt to talk about bourne ultimatum on my friendster blog. i wanted to talk about it but not make a review since putting a review would have been stale by that time, irrelevant. i was happily tapping on my keyboard when my pc screen froze. so there goes my blog entry, gone since friendster blogs doesn't automatically save blog drafts like blogspot does. so i made another feeble attempt to try and rewrite it after i had restarted my pc but then the vibe of writing was gone, the flow of ideas gone "pfft" and so i checked my blogs two blogs recently and i was so sad that my last entry in my friendster blog was in july and in my blogspot august.

i had about a liter of iced tea for dinner, i don't drink coffee so when i need a caffeine boost i take something else like iced tea, i forced myself to sit down infront of the pc, tap the keyboards and blog something decent. i had quite a few ideas, one was post videos of my current favorite tv ads and talk about them, at the same time post what is in my opinion the worst tv ad out there and talk about why i hate it. but then i decided against that, i will save that for later though. i want me to write something, to talk about something, and to practice on my writing. placing video clips would be glossing over my purpose. although i have to say this is mediocre, it is a consolation though that i managed to write this one.

birthday blues

so much for mellowing and less drama on the verge of my birthday. i woke up the day before my birthday feeling drowsy, the whole room spinning before me and sweating profusely. i thought i was dying, see the drama forming in my head right away. i spent the entire day dozing on and off, complaining about how bad i feel. my mom didn't even bother to ask me whether i want to go to the e.r. she just said that it's normal for me to feel down or low as my birthday is near. the moment she said that i felt like she aced how i felt exactly. i had a suspicion that whatever physical pain i am going through was psychosomatic, i am just having another anxiety attack. this one much worse than previous years and this one didn't go on weeks before but on the day before. not as excruciating by dragging the sinking feeling of getting a year older at a longer span of time but this one took me by surprise as it was very physically painful.

wishlist

1. here's to not leaving anything to chance. loosing luggage on any trip is such a hassle. the coolest thing that i've come across is this bagtag and bag stickers. it works by creating an owner's database in the internet for owners of this handy things.

2. my absolute source of comfort and delight. i love how godiva made such delicious hot chocolate mix. my absolute favorite is the milk chocolate variant. i am already dreaming of this now especially that it is raining. i remember hoarding canisters when i was in the states as this isn't sold in the philippines.

3. there's something about feeling so feminine when wearing a dress. i love dresses and i can't get enough of them.

4. i have been curious about lemony snicket's series of unfortunate events. i haven't gotten a copy of any of the thirteen books though i have scanned and skimmed through its pages at the bookstore. the picture below is the boxed set of the complete series.

5. although i already own the complete seven books of the harry potter series. i still would like to get the british version of all the seven books. selfish and very obsessive but i think it is very reasonable when being a true fan.

6. i have been hooked to this products. my mom and i wanted to tried it out when we saw it at rustan's supermarket and i have become a fan.













7. i'm in search of what phone to buy and this one has really been helpful. it's between the blackberry, the palm treo, and the not yet available here in the philippines iphone.










8. when i first saw this digital camera on an internet ad in yahoo, it was love at first sight. although the nv7 is a lot sleeker looking and a whole lot more feminine in size and looks but i think i prefer this for the features.

9. this is every bookworm's dream. a carry all the books i want minus the weight. this is called an illiad reader. can accomodate thirty books at a time. very great to carry around especially on that lazy beach vacation.

10. this is my part of being earth friendly in a fashionable style. anya hindmarch designed this canvass supermarket bag available at wholefoods. it is sold in limited numbers and has caused quite a craze.

posting this dosn't mean that i expect to be opening any one of these as either birthday present or christmas present. i am merely exepressing what to me is cool. i actually think that what we want even the superficial want of material things expresses our personalities.

birthdays

this photograph was taken last sunday, july 22, 2007 during a small gathering for lei's 16th birthday. everytime she celebrates her birthday, it's a reminder that mine is just around the corner. then my anxieties of turning a year older starts again although i have to say that this year somehow it has mellowed like the rest of my attitude and outlook in life. instead of being cynical and pessimistic i have become more hopeful. i guess my love for rock and alternative music is the only aspect in my life that hasn't mellowed. i just have this thought though, i think i am too young to start mellowing or does turning on to the late 20s category come with this change?

new blog on a new site

everybody in my friendster list probably knows that i keep a blog on my friendster account so why bother with a new one? i ended up creating this blog when i logged into my friendster account a couple of weeks ago and my friendster blog was inaccessible. that pissed me off as i was itching to write a blog about moving back to manila. i wanted to make an announcement that i have moved back to the city after seven months in guisokan, sinadangan, zamboanga del norte (the middle of nowhere). the idea of writing a blog has drained away by the time i clicked the link to blogs in my friendster account and suddenly being asked if i want to create a blog and not being routed to my blog. i know friendster does end up with technical glitches quite often and people like us who use their free service should just contend with it. but sometimes when you really want to write and creative juices are flowing (as if!) and something like that happens the it sucks big time.
so here i am now in my back up blog writing my first post. i hope i could have enough to keep up with two blogs though. we'll see! :)